Looking for ex Jung SuWon / Tae Yun Kim students (Part 4)

[Failed Student]

Kitty Ki -
Dreams are made up of threads of things that have happened to you recently or in the not too distant past.
Don't dwell on it, don't even try and make sense of it. Just about everyone that leaves a cult, a domestic violence situation, a battlefield, etc has Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

And hindsight is 100 percent...but back then we were all hypnotized and believed in her enagee

[Shadow Dancer]

Even to this day, I still have nightmares from being with kimpers. Though the frequency of those dreams has diminished, they still crop up from time-to-time.

[Failed Student]

Even to this day, I still have nightmares from being with kimpers. Though the frequency of those dreams has diminished, they still crop up from time-to-time.

I haven't had a nightmare about her in ages, but it's been interesting to see how the dreams have evolved over the years - from being pursued or trapped, to confronting her disciples and sometimes being able to best them to finally killing TYK herself. (In dreams, we are free to do as we wish). No, TYK et al, in reality I couldn't give a rat's ass whether you live or die..you just aren't a part of my life anymore.

[kittyki]

The first year I left I did have a lot of dreams where I was 'late for class' and got into trouble like I was a junior belt or something. When I was really into training and a young adult I had dreams about being lost or searching for others who were lost there. Yeah, it doesn't make sense to analyze it, but it was so vivid! And to an extent I wasn't able to be hypnotized, so I guess my subconscious said, if you really weren't sucked in, why did you not do very much to get out? Well, obviously TYK had a lot of influence and it would have been impossible to buck the system. I've never had naughty dreams about her. Eeewww! Just the thought of that even when I was 20 and a green belt is nasty! I knew I couldn't have handled it. Ha. FS, I never dreamed about me harming them but about others doing it. I was never that angry about them because I didn't know really what horrors were going on inside those COL houses, just rumors, until I was a black belt for a while and heard rumors. Then this site and others appeared. Heh.

[kittyki]

Just imagining what AG went through...eeeww, that's just nasty.

[Failed Student]

Don't know if I like this new format, took a while to figure it out, but it's up and running.

[Shadow Dancer]

Don't know if I like this new format, took a while to figure it out, but it's up and running.

Well... it is functional. As I get older, I'm less thrilled with change. But it works.

[bemused]

I miss the ominous looking black background. But black text on a white background is more readable.

[kittyki]

This new format is SO much easier to read, even if it rips off MySpace. Had a sequel to that dream some days ago. KMC was older in it, and everyone was new at the nondescript bookstore coffee place I had never been to before. Even the barista was different. For some reason I had on a dust mask. Weird. He didn't scowl or anything. The former students looked sad because they were out of work or something.

And another thing, not really related. I just had contact with a former part time COL, Yong Sa student who has left and who said 'it was all bullsh*t but...it's in the past.' Coming from the particular student, who will remain anonymous, it showed maturity.

[kittyki]

Oh and that whole 'one energy, one strength, one universal mind' stuff is quite new agey isn't it? But then she tacked on 'the pure white light of Christ, nothing but goo will go from us or come to us, blessed in the name of Christ amen.', and it's like...really TYK, are we praying? To whom? Cause if we were praying to Christ that's okay, but like many of you commented, it was like she thought she WAS like the Christ, which is demented. Maybe she was cribbing it from somewhere else, like when she riffed 'he can do, she can do, why not you' from a Korean poet, and changed it a little. Heh...

[Failed Student]

[QUOTE=kittyki;2506776]
. Had a sequel to that dream some days ago. KMC was older in it, and everyone was new at the nondescript bookstore coffee place I had never been to before. Even the barista was different. For some reason I had on a dust mask. Weird. He didn't scowl or anything. The former students looked sad because they were out of work or something.
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KittyKi, that's simple enough to analyze...you've moved on with your life and are no longer in COL mode. The mask was your filtering out the old "enagee", and your observations of the people in the coffee shop are now objective, not subjective.

BTW - next time you're in that coffee shop, you can order me a latte - a venti.

[Failed Student]

Oh and that whole 'one energy, one strength, one universal mind' stuff is quite new agey isn't it? But then she tacked on 'the pure white light of Christ, nothing but goo will go from us or come to us, blessed in the name of Christ amen.', and it's like...really TYK, are we praying? To whom? Cause if we were praying to Christ that's okay, but like many of you commented, it was like she thought she WAS like the Christ, which is demented. Maybe she was cribbing it from somewhere else, like when she riffed 'he can do, she can do, why not you' from a Korean poet, and changed it a little. Heh...

Now that's a mish mash of religious teachings, perhaps the "Pidgin English" version of the New Testament.

I didn't realize that the "he can do" shit was lifted from a Korean poet. Doesn't surprise me though...

[Failed Student]

Just looked at the JSW website. They have a new video glorifying TYK. Do you believe this shit?

[kittyki]

Happened by the Urban Dictionary again to see the lovely 'COL' , 'college of learning' definition and laughed. It was dated some time back. Surprised none of her ilk know about it, or they would have put up a glowing reply. One for Tae Yun Kim would be awesome. But really she isn't in anymore, is she? Her old fans were like love crazed groupies who even put her shoes on for her. What is she, a queen? (Maybe Queen Carlotta of Mortville, nee John Waters) And does anymore remember that time one of her guests fell to his knees and kissed her feet ranting about how she 'saved his life' and she was 'an angel'. Yeah, well there are sevweral types of angels, buddy.

[Kathy Kim]

Hello everyone...BS said I need to post or they are going to keep bugging me. I watched the new video. It was sad. I feel we all did our best to warn people..For them to be aware, to go in with open eyes. I say good job everyone. Everyone have a GREAT year.