Depression Sux.

**Frank White** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 12:45am

I suffer from Male depression. It's a stupid name because the only reason it's called Male Depression is because I'm a male. I don't see how it's different than Female Depression, or if they even call it Female Depression. I guess no one knows.

At least now I recognise it for what it is. I used to wonder why I would get depressed for no reason. I would mope around, trying to think of a reason to complain. "My job sucks. I hate working." I draw pictures for a living, travel, and make my own hours. Poor me.

It's hereditary, messed up childhood, whatever. The question is, what to do about it. Work out, eat right, sleep regular hours, thats a good idea. This time, however, I decide to get drunk, get in a bar fight, and snort a pile of coke. Now I feel GREAT! (sarcasm. If you never done coke, the comedown is horrible.) And of course, my wife loves when I come home at 9 am. I'm an idiot. So maybe I'll just go for a ride, clear my head. Nope, bike won't start. Nice.

Any of you deal with this ****? Maybe this is the wrong forum for this, or it's already been dealt with, but I don't care.

**NJM** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 12:47am

Does it get worse seasonally? If so, they have special lamps you can buy that help.

**Frank White** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 12:58am

What, like a lava lamp? No, I actually like fall and winter better. The rain makes me happy.

Riding a motorcycle in the rain and then drinking a mocha is like falling in love.

**NJM** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:12am

Originally Posted by switchblade

What, like a lava lamp?.

This sort of thing: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Light_therapy

I like the fall and winter better, too. However, the lack of sunlight still has a negative effect on me.

**bad credit** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:23am

There's been various threads over the years about depression. Some more serious than others, and some more supportive than others.

I tried St. John's Wort again recently for my depression, and after a week I started getting serious headaches and almost got sick at Judo. I waited a week to detox, and then tried a different brand. Same thing. Oh well, when I was on this herbal **** before it would alleviate my depression with euphoric sessions of manic joy out of nowhere.

St. John's Wort, in my experience, sucks, it takes weeks or more to kick in, and then makes me bi-polar, which is better? Ugh.

Man, I don't want to take the prescription stuff. People I know are trying to talk me into it. I don't have a chemical defficiency, though, I have a shitty life. It just sucks trying to improve your life when you don't see a point after dissapointment after dissapointment, and all you wanna do is sleep all day, cry, and occassionally kill somebody who really deserves it.

**NJM** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:25am

I've heard that Salvia Divinorum is a very affective anti-depressant which doesn't have any of the common nasty side affects.

**Frank White** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:33am

Isnt Salvia that legal hallucinogenic herb you buy at head shops? St johns doesnt rally do **** either. If you have a shitty life, that sucks, but at least you know what the problem is and can work towards fixing it.

**bad credit** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:44am

Salvia has been described by the chemical astronauts on this site as not even a drug, but a sentient self aware spiral molecule that possesses you and takes your body for a ride when you're high. Also, something about time travel.

No thanks.

Switchblade, be glad you've got a fun job, a motorscooter, and a wife to bang. I can't even begin to understand people with great lives who still feel sad. I'm not mocking, I literally couldn't imagine the personal hell that must be.

**Frank White** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 1:54am

So I'm supposed to smoke a frikkin bowl of Salvia before work everyday, NJM? I want to kick your ass, maybe that would cheer me up.

Credit, when my life was hell, I didn't know I had 'Depression'. When I became a successful family man, I worried I would mess it up. It is scary to be happy when you are used to a bad life, sometimes you will subconciously screw it up, because you feel more comfortable with a bad life. Its important to recognise this, as well as Depression, for what it is.

Also, if you in fact do have bad credit, buy a Gueriila Guide To Credit Repair. It's about $10.

**MEGA JESUS-SAMA** · Posted On: 12/01/2007 2:21am

Originally Posted by bad credit

Salvia has been described by the chemical astronauts on this site as not even a drug, but a sentient self aware spiral molecule that possesses you and takes your body for a ride when you're high. Also, something about time travel.

No thanks.

Since when was Bullshido filled with a bunch of pussies?