Well I'm pretty ashamed of this fight, but after reading what Sang posted in another thread, I realized how stupid it is. I wasn't ashamed that I lost, but because of the mental game. That is to say, I couldn't focus and wasn't thinking the right thoughts.
My gym told me the fight was at 130(I was like 138 and had 4-5 weeks) and was a sad panda when they told me it was at 135. I came in 1-0, I'm not sure what my opponent was. But apparently he's 4-1 as of July 1st 2010.
TL;DR in advance:
Accepted a fight and kept going while injured and being under prepared. Got nowhere close to enough sparring in. Had no focus/got psyched out. Working hard without hard sparring will only get you so far.
Funny thing is I remember reading about people talking about dumps/throws on the forum and how awesome they were. And then I got tossed around.
I also learned that I have a hard time differentiating between a left leg kick and left body kick. I don't know if I was trying to throw a lot of superman punches or they just ended up looking like failed supermans because I was teeped/leg kicked. I also caught myself doing the scooping/catching legkicks at bad times(meaning I'm doing them reactively because I'm getting kicked to ****, rather than planning on checking and scooping the leg up).
I thought that since I already had one fight out of the way my mind would be strong. Boy was I wrong.
Now that's out of the way, here comes the excuse train. I was unprepared for this mentally and physically. My first fight I did well, was actively thinking about fighting, what to do next, how should I try to bait, observing what my opponent was doing, and listening to my corner. Then I start slacking off again, training maybe two days a week(for like 5-6 months), and eventually go on vacation for a month. I come back, and my coach asks me if I want to fight, and I have about 4-5 weeks to train. I accept, even though I have a bad left knee. It acts up as I never got it checked out, on top of going from 0-60 in training stresses it out. I get in one hard sparring session with this new guy who destroyed my quad(and knee). Now I can't throw right roundhouses to the body(or head).
My first fight I read that I should essentially meditate to help my nerves. Just imagine being in the changing room then walking out to the ring. I did none of it this time. My first outing I was the 2nd fight, this time I had like 9-10 before me. I let everyone else affect me. There was this girl from my gym fighting like two before me(and she's damn good), but she was just panicking and stressing out the whole time, one friend lost to a decision and another got TKOed in round 1. It felt like I waited so long I adrenaline dumped.
Eventually I hop in the ring but I have a different feeling. I just can't focus on the fight, my mind is shitting itself. I couldn't find the confident me who was trying to psyche myself up that I had previously. I kept forgetting my opponent was southpaw as well. On top of that I couldn't hear anything but my opponent's corner, and even thought that the bodyshot after he caught my leg would hurt. I also distinctly remember sitting down in my corner and then zoning out for 10 seconds. It was bad enough I actually told my coach to hit me. On top of that, technique went to ****. I even thought at one point, hey, if I don't block his punches maybe start punching more. Although I also wasn't worried about his hands.
It was like I devolved.