Thank you Bullshido and I'm Sorry.
Originally Posted by Kokikai90
This is me from the thread: (my first post on Bullshido) Aikido myth or truth
I was fuckin retarded for thinking this. I fully regret talking ****. I fully regret acting like I knew AT ALL what I was talking about here. After stopping posting on this thread, I proceeded to do a few things:
First: I confronted my (now ex-)Sensei about the problems presented to me by the very intelligent members of this site (most notably would be Rock Ape, I appreciate your patience in the matter, and I apologize for my idiotic behavior; Honorable mention to Ignorami, who also contributed quite a bit to the conversation).
His (ex Sensei's) reactions were, in my now more educated opinion, to be expected. He told me that I shouldn't worry about such things and that my training would come to fruition. That he was teaching me something I couldn't learn in "silly play fighting". He then made it a point to demonstrate one technique against an attack from MMA at every class I attended, in an attempt to convince me of it's ineffectiveness. I could smell the bullshit from a mile away at this point.
Second: Despite my former sensei's wishes, I went into a Judo class, and then a few days later in a Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu class. I got my ass kicked royally. To my surprise they told me I was doing pretty well for my first day, but I felt like I was doing horrible. I realized then the inflation of ego that I had been suffering. I went on here and read the Newbs guide to BJJ in the Basic Technique Forum and it helped me get over the tapping thing. Tap Early Tap Often. And to be honest, I feel like a total tool for what I said, and the complete ass I made of myself in my previous posts.
I have since realized that I know nothing about martial arts, or about fighting. And my own assessment of my skills was inflated and skewed by faulty training methods and blandishment from my former sensei. I am truly sorry for who I was before I found this site, and am grateful for it's existence.
TL;DR I Suck, I'm sorry
In this thread, how many of you have had to overcome ego problems similar to this in the past? What was the breaking point? What was an example of your "lowest moment" before you tossed the ego aside and just started training? Or if you can't relate to this at all, then why are still reading this thread?