Just want to make an observation about post-gong sau shitstorms: my experience is that even if you have every intention of accepting the result and moving on, there are always people who will try to make that as hard as possible for you. Yes Rudy's reaction was not what it should have been, but when we say "All you had to do was say X and not Y and Z..." it's not an easy thing to do in practice when the **** is flying and you're getting tagged.
I can laugh at the gong-sau, because I can accept my mistakes, failings, and suckage. In person (I hope you make the mega in Boston early Sep) everyone's nice at TD's....BUT were you to cry, whine, and rage up in the gym like here...you'd get exactly the same thing as here. I know you would from me.
I know you feel attacked, but it's largely something of your own causing.